| So, how would you feel if you lost the one you love with all of your heart;;
Me and andrew decided to take a break last tuesday. it was all fun and games until reality struck. I love him, and he "loves" me..we need to be together. I did some dumb things and so did he. But it was ok, we could get through anything.
Last night He decided to "move out" to Miranda's to be with the "cool kids" and ditch his girlfriend. I called him today and we talked. I made a special trip to Woodbine to talk to him. Everything was going good. We had all of his things and were on our way to his house, when his mom text'd me and told me that if andrew were to move back in, he would need to go to church every sunday, and obey rules. That was tooooo much to ask of him. He told me to take him back to Miranda's. I couldnt talk im out of it for anything. All the words, the tears, the pain, for nothing. NObody understands, what this feels like. I love this kid more than anything in this world. and he does this to me. WOW. I guess reality really struck today, God is telling me something. I guess im not meant to be with him. Or he is doing this for Andrew, to get better, and realize what he has. But sometimes you never realize what you have until its gone. I may be gone when he is ready again. Who knows. Time will tell. but mostly God has a plan for both of us. And im going to let him take me where he wants to.
I need things to occupy me, if your ever sittin around home, bored, i always need to go out and get my mind of things.
I had a blast tonight with Megan! Hopefully there will be another one just like it tomorrow!! i love her!!!
xOamie |
anyways, im going to post some prom pictures up here if it will work..if not then i guess you can see them on my myspace...the link is down there.
